I’m one month into life with a new kidney as of writing this post. Life is different in more ways than I can keep track of. Even recovering from major surgery, there are moments where I feel no pain at all. There are moments where I am not tired. That was not the case before surgery. It wasn’t the case at all. I cannot imagine going back to the life I was surviving before transplant now that I am living life on this side. I am so grateful to the people that contributed to make this moment possible so I could have the surgery and could buy the medications that keep me alive and healthy post transplant. Top of that list of course is the man that gave me a kidney. I live a different life now because of all of you.
There is nothing I can do to earn or to payback these gifts. I will never be good enough or holy enough to even the score. The beauty of grace and mercy is that they are given without merit of the recipient in the purest expressions of unconditional love and acceptance. The freedom of that is I can now use my new life to pay forward grace and mercy out of gratitude and not obligation. I’m not earning to clear a debt, but giving to lighten the load of others. This all happened to me in a moment where expressions of grace are largely needed in our time.
I try to express that in these blog posts. You can read others on this site and hopefully be blessed by my journey. I also began The Matters of Faith Podcast on the Project Entertainment Network on the subject of faith. I was going to put off the start of the show until May, but Network owner Armand Rosamilia in his wisdom thought beginning as I was going through transplant would be more meaningful to listeners. He was right. Grace does not wait until moments of peace. We need it most and understand it most in moments of struggle.
We recorded several episodes before surgery and a few after that will be airing each week. The first episode aired as I was in pre-op for transplant. We recorded episode six with my wife and I prior to surgery. We recorded episode 7 after surgery. Each week I interview someone about their personal experiences with faith from their own journeys through life.
I don’t enter the conversations with an agenda. I just discuss their story from their perspective. Some are from a similar faith background as me and some guests come from outside those traditions. I learn something important from each person I speak to that strengthens my faith from their insights.
There is something powerful in listening. For all the things we do to try to win arguments and try to convince others that we are right, there is seldom anything that breaks through it all in such a powerful way as a person’s story. I know this to be true as a writer and as a believer. Stories personalize issues and draw us over into empathy for others. It is missing in so much of our discourse, but matters so deeply to understanding our own stories.
Check out the Matters of Faith Podcast. You can also advertise with the show, if you have something you want the audience to hear. The Project Entertainment Network has been a great support in bringing these stories to the audience. It may not be your story, but someone else’s journey may help you better understand your own.
Supporting a Life
We have been blown away by the support of friends, family and strangers during Jay’s kidney transplant. Thank you! Thank you for your support, for the love and for your overwhelming generosity!
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